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Waiting

Dan had a good day today even though he does not have much appetite.  Jim, from Fayetteville, brought a lot of happiness into our lives by dropping in.  He had to be in Texas, so he drove a couple of extra hours to visit us.

Ann J. shared this poem with us.  It describes our situation now, and gives a “prescription” for how to take care of everything.  May you be blessed by reading it.  — Anne and Dan

I AM WAITING, LORD 

by Jessie R. Sandberg

I am waiting, Lord, and I feel immobilized by fear—frozen by the things I do not understand.

 I cannot step ahead toward goals that once seemed so obtainable.

Late storms have brought disaster to my landscape.

Familiar things seem somehow not to sit quite soundly on their old foundations.

Strange shifts of angles in the shape of forms once stable and secure confuse me, make me lose my compass-point.

Where to turn? What to do? I have no clue as to the future.

My options have dissolved and trickle away with the run-off from the storm.

 And so I wait… Lord, help me not to simply sit among my broken things, turning them over and over in my hands, grieving for the past.

Teach me in my waiting to find the valued remnants and store them in a place quiet and safe. Help me to take the time to bury dead dreams with dignity—not to wallow in regrets nor to collect small grievances.

Let nothing be wasted in this crisis that has seemed to stop the clock and lock the door to all I felt most precious.

Help me to watch beyond my altered skyline for that first faint glow of Morning Sun.

 Let me wrap myself in faith and snuggle down with hope.

Help me to discern, even now, the soft gilding of these ruins with early dawn.

Let me see, approaching with the morning light, the form of Him who stills the storm and transforms with His presence.

—From the book: “Letting People Off the Hook”

August 1, 2008 at 11:18 pm Leave a comment

A Different Kind of Day

Wednesday Dan was singing in the shower.  Today, he was struggling with nausea.  He awoke at 5:15 a.m., and could not go back to sleep.  He felt like he was having an acid reflux problem.  After doing what he knew to do for acid reflux…and getting no relief, he did not know what to do to help himself.  He has not walked the path of illness much until lately.

Through all of this, Dan is still very thoughtful.  He would not wake me up.  When I did awaken, he told me of his problem.  He said, “I finally took a nausea tablet, but I still do not feel well.  Will you fix me some toast and hot black tea, please?”  While he ate his toast, I prepared a fresh papaya.  That did the trick!  The nausea went away.  

Today, he had fresh papaya with each meal.  However, fatigue overwhelmed him all day. This is not an easy thing for my normally strong man to accept.  He apologized for being so much trouble.  I said, “I do not want to hear any more apologies unless you have done something ugly.  You have always taken good care of me.  Now it is my turn to take care of you.”

The only way to manage a serious illness like cancer is to turn everything over to God. This is simply too much to handle on our own.  God continues to send angels in disguise to help us, pray for us, encourage us, make us laugh in the midst of Dan’s pain.  Intentional followers of Christ bless us daily.  Without our faith in Christ, we could not manage.

This sweet message came to us today from Ann J., “wrap yourselves in faith and snuggle down with hope.” In your struggles, I pray you will do the same. Jesus is standing, waiting for each one of us to reach out to Him so He can help us no matter how tough our path may be. — Anne and Dan

August 1, 2008 at 5:57 am 2 comments


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