Archive for August 23, 2008

Life with It’s Ups and Downs

If we are honest with ourselves, there is no one who is “up” all day every day.  Life is hard.  “No one knows what goes on behind closed doors,” was a line in a popular song years ago.  Illness, death, rejection by loved ones, hurtful words that can never be taken back. So many things happen.  We all have our story that most people don’t know.  But God knows…and cares. 

Dan has done okay considering that today was the second day after his chemotherapy. The mass keeps growing protruding from his right groin and right abdomen. It is hard for him to get around well.  Besides, the pain never stops.  It only increases when he has to sit down or stand up.  When I look at Dan’s face, I see how weary he is.  I’m very tired which leaves me open to negative thoughts, sadness, painful emotions.

This is supposed to be a journal, a chronicle of events about our journey in the Dark Wilderness.  It would be nice if every entry was positive, happy.  But that would not be a chronicle – that would be a fairy tale.  Sometimes I write nothing because I hurt too much, have nothing happy to report.  But there is always the good news that we are not alone when we are in Christ.  

“Count it all joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.” James 1:2.  In other words, when you are struggling, hurting, you can rejoice because you know this will help you to grow stronger in your faith, and even better able to glorify God by your lives.  We are being tested by Satan. God will help us win this battle one day at a time. — Dan and Anne

August 23, 2008 at 5:50 am 1 comment


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