What Do You Want to Hear?

November 2, 2008 at 2:39 am 2 comments

Do you want to only hear the happy, upbeat things that happen in our life so you can think we are so strong that we never struggle? Or, will you lose respect for us the times when we stumble over the rocks in this dark valley?   We have been surrounded with blessings.  Every good deed we ever did has been paid back 10 times over.

Then, why have I been so blue today?  The last few days have been emotionally and physically draining. Two doctors told us there is no medical treatment for Dan’s sarcoma. They make no comment about his anti-cancer diet.  The oncologist did say that Dr. Dubey, Dan’s oncologist/radiologist for the first sarcoma, wants to see Dan in 3 weeks to determine if this 2nd cancer is in an area that has not been radiated. ( But they don’t think radiation will kill the cancer…just slow down the growth.)

The nurse from Miracle Home Health continues to cause much less pain than the clinic did when she removes the sponge from Dan’s incision, puts a new sponge in and tapes it…but I see him grimace, and groan quietly.  Even with pain medication, his pain lasts for several hours.

The bright side is that precious friends continue to bring beautiful, delicious meals designed to help Dan win the battle over cancer. Two very special men, Craig Altrock (full time Worker at Let’s Start Talking) and Leslee Altrock’s uncle helped us move back to Dottie’s house.  They did all the heavy lifting of boxes, suitcases, etc.  Brenda, from Flower Mound, continues to be our Personal Shopper. Today we had a very special treat – her two teenage daughters came with her!  They are beautiful on the inside AND outside.

Jamie chose scriptures from Romans 1 – 12  to lift me up, and concluded with, “Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God – which is your spiritual worship.  Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – His good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2.  We have done our best to obey this admonition from Paul since our teen age years.  We pray you will do this too. — Anne and Dan


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  • 1. Jeanie Mercer  |  November 2, 2008 at 3:45 am

    Believe me, I will not lose respect for you when you stumble over the rocks and admit the valley is dark. For years I’ve remembered and been helped by a greeting card once sent by a friend: “[On the front] “When you’re down and out, Lift up your head and shout…”
    [Inside]: “…I’m down and out!” But I admire how faithful and courageous you both are (even when you don’t realize it) in the face of these terrific struggles. God bless you and sustain you,
    Jeanie Mercer

  • 2. Sherrie Hammond  |  November 2, 2008 at 2:56 pm

    I do NOT lose respect for you when you stumble over the rocks while traveling through the dark valley. Do you lose respect for me when my electricity goes off in my house and I fall over a pair of shoes? Nope! I think you both are great people with a true, genuine love for the Lord Jesus and God. I think you feel real human feelings like everyone feels from time to time when circumstances are confusing, distressing, painful, and long. It’s okay to feel your feelings whatever your feelings may be. I think you are real, and your realness means a great deal to me. I’m glad you share your good and bad days with us all, because we all learn so much from each other in that way. Our faith grows–especially through the dark valley times.

    You know, you’ve been through so much this year and you continue fighting for life and liberty from this cancer. You just get tired like all human beings get tired. You feel saddened, worried, confused, and maybe even cry like real human beings do through these times that test the soul. That is all you are experiencing right now–real human feelings. I think, you desperately want to hear something hopeful from the doctors, but the doctors are also limited human beings. And everyone is tired of the fight against this nasty hurtful disease that physically limits Dan and Anne.

    So I hope you will simply keep trusting God’s plan, hoping and praying for the best possible outcome, continue looking for the optimistic to happen, continue doing your part to live again, and cry when you need to cry because it just gets frustrating sometimes with cancer–I know, I’ve been there and done that with my dad recently this past year.

    God loves you no matter what is happening in your life! God loves you even when you are not perfect. God loves you all the time, not just when you are up. And, Steve and I love you too very much . . . all the time. Rest now, and wait patiently for God to show you the next step. Breathe a deep breath when you feel anxious. Cry when you need to cry. Express whatever thoughts or feelings need to come out of your heart. And know, I love you just the same . . . just the way you are right now. God loves you all the time! Jesus rose from death so you can rise up out of the misery too in due season. Jesus will rescue, save, and deliver you from all this hurt in due season (Revelation 19:11-21). God bless you. Remember, Christ’s victory is on the way and coming soon on your behalf, “I saw heaven opened. Look! There was a white horse! The person who was riding on it was called Faithful and True. He judges fairly . . . He is dressed with a robe dipped in blood. His name is The Message of God. The armies in heaven are following Him on white horses . . . He has this name written on His robe and on His thigh: KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS (Revelation 19:11-16-SEB)!”

    Love, Sherrie


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