Stumbling in the Dark

January 3, 2009 at 6:34 am 3 comments

“How is Dan,” people ask. Truth – He is weak from the infection in the wound, from the rash that covered his entire body for one week, and from having daily to lie in one position so long to get the bandage changed. The nurse said today that the tumor has grown 25% since she first saw it Dec. 13.  However, I pointed out it is my opinion that because the incision is healing on the top edge of the wound, fluid is building up in the wound instead of having an easy place to drain from.  The nurse expects Dan to be hospitalized any minute.  

A question that began to arise in my weary mind recently was, “How much longer can I hold up under this rigorous routine?”  The answer came on New Year’s Day…I can’t stay up, can’t eat, had a piercing headache. After resting 24 hours, I am a little better.

New Year’s Eve night, we got on our computers for a couple of hours…we found places to order the good tape BSN Hypafix, 2″ X 10 yards.  But we really needed it the next day.  Our son finally found the tape at a store in downtown San Francisco that was open on New Year’s Day .  He and his wife fetched it, and got back just as the nurse was beginning to put tape on Dan’s leg!  We were stunned that it costs $24.00 at the store, and $12.00 on line.  But, it is the only tape that is easy on Dan’s skin AND stays on.  We keep learning as we stumble through Cancer’s Dark Valley.

Our son and his family are tremendous helpers during these dark times.  We are to the place where we cannot manage things on our own during the day.  They always prepare the carrot juice and a dinner that Dan can eat.  When our granddaughter  sees that I am chopping veggies, she asks, “Gram, do you want me to chop for you?”  They help us think through things.  The childr4n take care of the dishes. All of them are thoughtful, helpful. And messages from you bring us joy.

The Scripture God gave me tonight is Acts 7:2,3, “The God of glory appeared to our father Abraham….’Leave your country and your people, and go to the land I will show you.”  We obeyed Him when He called us to Romania.  Cancer brought us back to the U.S. for treatment.  What land do you suppose He will show us next? — Anne and Dan


Entry filed under: Cancer's Dark Valley.

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3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Sherrie Hammond  |  January 3, 2009 at 2:57 pm

    Dearest Ones,
    I hear you, and I feel your pain with you. I understand about not eating, not sleeping, and having a piercing headache. These are the times that try our souls to the limits. Your son, daughter-in-law and grandchildren are a helpful support for which I am truly grateful. You are in my continuing thoughts and prayers. May God grant you the resolute strength, calm courage, and ability to go through these hard times successfully by the power of Jesus and the Holy Spirit Who are working in you for well-being. May God give you peace very soon.

  • 2. Fern Doyle  |  January 3, 2009 at 5:01 pm

    We just returned to Miami last night after spending the holidays with loved ones in Austin. I am now srarting to catch up on the blogs that were sent while away. It was so good to get to talk to Dan briefly while in Texas. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. May all the strength, courage, and hope you need for each new day be poured out on you by our Lord and Savior.
    Love to you both,

  • 3. Dottie  |  January 4, 2009 at 12:38 am

    I send you my love. I thank God for your son and daughter-in-law and grandchildren, who are so caring and demonstrate the love of Christ in their lives.. Hug them and each other for me.


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