Archive for May 11, 2009

“I Don’t Feel Sick Enough to Be Dying”

Last night…OK, it was 1 a.m. this morning, Dan was in pain from swollen feet and legs.  I hadn’t been to bed – he needed so much care last night…clean and pack the wound, adjust the CPAP face mask that doesn’t fit, etc.  I massaged his feet and legs for half an hour, pressing gently upward to get the excess fluid to move out.  After arranging 5 pillows to hold his ankles higher than his knees, I went to bed.  At 3 a.m., and 6 a.m., I arranged pillows again. Our work in the night was worth it. The swelling is almost gone!

As we talked about the future when he will be with Jesus, free of all pain, Dan said, “I don’t feel sick enough to be dying.”  I wonder how sick one has to feel in order to know that the end is near?  Is Dan’s life nearly over?  The doctors say so.  

I hope you will read what Sherrie wrote last night, think about it, listen to what the Lord is saying to you as you read it, and do something about it.  But that’s up to you.  You are free to choose what you do.  You only have to explain it to God once…on the Judgement Day.  Then He gets to choose what your next step is.

Sherrie said,  “It is so true that a Christian’s greatest promise from God resides in the Resurrection.  God is in the Raising Up [Resurrection] Business.  God either raises us up to a new day so we can serve Him.  Or, God raises our spirit up to heaven’s home to be with Him forever and later God will raise up our bodies out of the grave.  Either way, Christians are raised up and out of this world’s destruction and decay to a New Life with a New View through Jesus’ teachings.  Either way, Christians win victory over our sorrows.  

Believers have this New View and New Life about everything that happens on our journey.  In this way, Jesus gives believers the abundant, plentifully supplied life that never ends.  How wonderful having this great hope in Christ’s Resurrection.  

Jesus says, “I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly (John 10:10).”  “I am the resurrection and the life.  The person who commits himself to Me will live, even though he may die.  Every person who lives and commits himself to Me will never die!  Do you believe this (John 11:25,26)?”   “I am the good shepherd.  I know My followers and My followers know Me, just as My Father knows Me and I know My Father.  I will give my life for the sheep . . . My sheep listen to My voice.  I know them.  They follow Me.  I give them eternal life.  They will never be lost.  No one will snatch them out of My hand.  My Father is stronger than anyone.  No one can snatch them from My Father’s hand.  He has given Me all things.  My Father and I are united (John 10:14-16, 27-30).”  — Anne and Dan

May 11, 2009 at 2:23 pm 3 comments

Last Mother’s Day with My Dan?

My heart is too full of sadness to write much tonight.  The first half of this day, Mother’s Day,  Dan felt very weak, in pain, making me very aware that going to be with Jesus will be a welcome relief for Dan.  We had a sweet afternoon as he gained just enough energy to go with us to a lovely Italian restaurant where he hosted Mother’s Day Dinner for our daughter in law and me.  After we came home, he slept, read awhile…in his special recliner with his swollen feet and legs propped up high.

 Will this be the last Mother’s Day that I can celebrate with the father of our children, the boy who proposed to me when we were teenagers, the young man who asked me to go to the Mission Field with him, the middle aged man who dreamed of returning to the Mission Field when we “retired?”                                                     

CJ, a friend we with whom we attended Abilene Christian College, gave me permission to share what he wrote.  Perhaps it will help you. —  “Just a note, as we have gotten the last communication from you through our friend, Dwain.  You can only now look back with no regrets.  It sounds through all we know about, that you and Dan have done every thing possible to change his health conditions.  And even when we go to the limit, there are times we cannot change those conditions as we would like. 

 Even with prayers from sincere and loving hearts to a Father who DOES hear, conditions may not change as we would have them.  He has a ‘time line’ that we cannot know; therefore we do not know what beauty He can make of our ‘struggles and heartaches’; but we do know He loves us, has plans for us (Jer. 29:11) and our ‘time’ is in His glorious handiwork.   

May your coming days, together, be rich, full of sharing your love and remembering days past that have been, not only beneficial to you, but to those you were around.  God bless you and your family; knowing that friends you don’t even know well, are before the Throne on your behalf…. don’t forget: ‘just when you think He is all you have; you find He is really ALL you need.’  Texas prayer partners….cj”   YES, He is ALL we need.  — Anne and Dan

Danny, 4 years old, Leadville, CO, 1938

Danny, 4 years old


Dan & Anne, 2003, 50th Anniversary








                                                                                                                                           Dan and Anne, 50th anniversary, 2003

May 11, 2009 at 5:41 am 1 comment