Archive for May 24, 2009


Friday night Dan was up at 12:30, 3:30, 5:30 a.m.  If I was simply an observer, not emotionally involved, I’d find this very interesting…his torso and legs filling with excess lymph fluid that can’t exit his body; every few days a new medication allergy develops; the spreading of ointments in an attempt to stop the rash and itching; the massaging of his swollen legs in an effort to reduce pain and keep more cellulitis from developing; the application of Silver Shield to the cellulite areas of his legs that look like they were severely sunburned; the new CPAP mask that we ordered that does not fit, but the 4″ elastic band to wrap around his head almost makes the old CPAP mask give him the ability to breathe when he is asleep; the body wracking cough that is now responding to Tussin; the attempts to get him to drink water that he does not want; and on and on and on.

Dan does not complain, even though he sees himself declining.  Weak as a kitten, he walks bent over holding onto his walker for support. But walk he does!  He cannot lift his legs to get in or out of bed.  We’re grateful he had No fever today. But when Amber trimmed his finger nails, he said to round the edges because that was necessary to work on the proof machine.  (He put himself through Pepperdine and ACC by operating a proof machine at banks.)

Tim and Claudia (our Dutch/Brazilian “grandchildren”) arrived today for one week to help take care of Dan…and to say, “goodbye.” Natasha and Amber will be here one more week.  Dan requires around the clock care now.  He is coughing incessantly at the moment.  He is anxious when I am not with him.

The process of prolonged illness that leads to death is an unlovely, exhausting, challenging experience.  The only way to survive this is to cling to God.  Let Him guide you, protect you from harm, comfort you, carry you.  Sin brought Death into the world, but Jesus brought the opportunity for everyone to choose Eternal Life.  This is a lonely, rocky path to walk, but with Jesus, we can do all things…whatever comes our way, He will help us deal with it.  

“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that iall things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.” 2 Corinthians 9:8   We are waiting; God is faithful. — Anne and Dan

May 24, 2009 at 7:38 am 3 comments