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On this grey morning the day after spending 1 hour in the dentist chair, I’m pretty tired. He removed the temporary crown he made, and cleaned out more infection in the roots of a tooth – caused by a poorly applied crown put on in CA last January. The Dr. probed with med filled needles to treat the roots and my jaw bone. The infection caused arthritis in my thumbs and forefingers. (That means I can’t plant my garden.) It’s easy to feel sorry for myself at times. Then this morning…
I opened my computer and saw Karen’s message…PICTURES. I felt led to look, like it was something I needed to see…to cause me to laugh…to lift my spirits. And, sure enough, I was filled with awe at the beauty, laughed at the humor (didn’t God have fun when He set things in motion to make all those shapes!), and was deeply inspired by the last one with the heart on the ocean…and the face with extended arm and hand in the clouds above. (Sorry it came out so small here.)
I don’t know why I am having to endure this illness, with fatigue sometimes that makes it just too hard to think. God will use it to His glory. That’s all that really matters. Meanwhile, I have a mix of lonely hours when I truly know I have no one but God, and days where there is a stream of helpers coming to my aid.
Today, I hope to go to the bank to transfer funds from a USD account to a RON account . (Dan used to do all of that.) I’ve been watching the exchange rate. The USD is up. Had I exchanged funds last week, I would have lost $. After that I will meet with an M.D., PhD microbiologist who is part of our team for natural healing of cancer. At 4 p.m., I have a counseling session. At 6 p.m., Levy, a friend who is a veterinarian and a specialist in plants is coming by. He will put together a plan for making my small front yard into flower beds – herb garden, rock garden, etc. (We’ll see how much of the plan I can afford right now.) And, then, at 7 p.m., the Thursday night English Bible Discussion group meets.
There will be rest times in between. I’m praying that God will give me the strength to do all this. And, now, the sun just came out! — Anne
Have a blessed day. Cloudy or sunny, God is with us. — Anne
“Everyone” told me over and over, “You must visit Sibiu! It is so beautiful, historical.” So, I arranged to fly to Sibiu on this last return trip. I am so thankful that I chose to do that.
Sibiu was the largest and wealthiest of the seven walled citadels built in the 12th century by German settlers known as Transylvanian Saxons. The Romanians call them Saas. The riches amassed by its guilds paid for the construction of both impressive buildings and the fortifications required to protect them.
Sibiu’s Old Town retains the grandeur of its earlier days when rich and powerful guilds dominated regional trade. Like Sighisoara and Brasov, it has a distinctly Germanic feeling. Sections of the medieval wall still guard the historic area, where narrow streets pass steep-roofed 17th century buildings with gable overhangs before opening into vast, church-dominated squares such as Great Square and Little Square.
You history buffs and lovers of ancient beauty will especially enjoy this city of 170,000 which has been inhabited since 300 B.C. I enjoyed meeting the Lee Skeltons, missionaries, who have a great program going helping people improve their English through World English Institute, and Let’s Start Talking! They took us out to dinner at a cozy Romanian restaurant. Stephanie Skelton escorted Adolf and me around the city. Here are photos from that special day in my life —
“The spacious firmament on high,
With all the blue ethereal sky,
And spangled heavens, a shining frame
Their great Original proclaim.
The unwearied sun, from day to day,
Does his Creator’s powers display,
And publishes to every land
The work of an Almighty Hand.”
– by Joseph Addison
Be blessed. — Anne
Papa helps Big Brother, Agoston, cut one of his cakes for his 4th birthday!
“None of us lives to himself, and none of us die to himself. For if we live, we live to the Lord. And if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s.” Romans 14: 7 – 8
I was thrown into a most confusing, challenging situation only 6 days after arriving in Sfantu Gheorghe…visa problems forced me to leave Romania. Now I am strong enough to share my thoughts.
“August 24, 2009
I am now on a Romanian/Hungarian Rapid train racing through the blackness of a Transylvanian night. It is midnight. No stars can be seen from the window of my compartment for the sky is covered with black clouds with rain streaming over my window. There have been a lot of firsts in recent weeks…first airplane trip to Romania without Dan, first worship service in SG without Dan, and now another significant one…first train trip in Europe without Dan.
After settling me in my 2 persons sleeping compartment, at 11 p.m. Adolf stood outside my window until the train pulled out of the station. Only then, as I stared into the nothingness outside my window did I feel totally alone. No one, besides two conductors, are in this car. My door is bolted and locked with 2 locks. I am safe. The train is clean…and so quiet. As the emptiness began to challenge me, the Holy Spirit reminded me that God is with me. I am never alone.
Why I am going to Budapest? The visa problem is only what is sending me there. As I fumed about the interruption of my work in SG, I heard a small voice saying, “This is a God appointed time.” Then Nancy wrote me on Facebook that this may be one of those “God appointments.” — confirmation of what had “crossed my mind.” When Zoli and Andi invited me to visit them in Budapest on my way to Romania, I told them. ” I have no plans to come to Budapest…maybe later.” Well, this is apparently “later.” I am amazed at the strength the Lord has given me. Lots of challenges have been thrown in my path the last few days, but God continues to be faithful and work them out. So, I walk by faith…not by sight. Where would the glory to God be if I could work everything out by myself?
The words to an old song Dan and I used to sing keep coming to me, “I am a pilgrim, I am a stranger, I can tarry but a night. Though none go with me, still I will follow….” I’m fine; All is well. I await with wonder what lies ahead for me the next few days in Budapest, Hungary.”
Almost 5 months later, I know the answer. But that’s for another time. One message is that God is ALWAYS with us in all circumstances. — Anne
When we were “young marrieds,” Dan wanted to talk about what life insurance he should buy. Just the thought of being without him upset me, brought tears to my eyes. Being young and foolish, I refused to talk about life insurance. Dan brought the subject up several times over the next few years explaining that it was for my protection, so that I’d have income in case something happened to him. Finally, I tearfully agreed, and, yes, we bought life insurance for Dan. Now, I’m thankful we did.
But it is more painful than I had imagined to be without Dan. Some days I feel more like a robot than a live person. Other days, I feel totally alive. I don’t know how one prepares for such a major change in life. And, I really don’t know how one manages such a challenge if they do not have a close walk with Jesus.
My dear friends at the Let’s Start Talking headquarters sent me this birthday card last week…on my 75th birthday:
“Life is change…this much we know.
We plant a seed, we watch it grow.
A caterpillar, small and shy, unfurls into a butterfly.
An acorn falls so it can be transformed into a sturdy tree.
And so we know when change arrives across the landscape of our lives,
We still can trust that it will mean a special blessing not yet seen.”
— author unknown
I feel like the acorn that is decaying in the soil, and beginning to have that first little growth God intends. — Anne
Suddenly, seeing Dan’s photos was too painful. Opening the closet door where his coat still hangs was more than I could bear…and I began to shut down, retreat from the world and my feelings. However, I knew to reach out for help. A therapy session (on Skype) with a woman, trained in the deep healing therapy that I use, began to pull me out of it. God will see me through this.
The first week in December, I was in Spain with Tim and Claudia and their family. I am happy to announce that while there, we established the Spanish Branch of God’s Children. They have collect many good, warm used clothes that will soon be going to the Covasna County Red Cross. One of their children is heading up a campaign at her school to collect sturdy shoes to send to the children. The other child is going to head up a drive to collect good toys to ship to the children. Also, one of the local banks has agreed to put a “change box” in their foyer for people to donate their change to help the children and elderly in Romania living in poverty.
“…it is God which works in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure.” Phillipians 2:13 — Anne