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I Can Only Imagine

There will be no darkness, because God is light. I John 1:9

Tonight, just at sunset, I was sitting in my room, too weak to go to the dining room, having my evening meal alone.  Suddenly, sunlight streaming through the double windows made a huge cross on the wall across from me.

At that moment, one of my favorite songs, “I Can Only Imagine,” by Mercy Me, began to play on the Mp3 player a friend gave me!  Oh, I was reminded…I am never alone.  As I listened to the precious words of that song, I will filled with joy in anticipation of actually being with God one day.  Can you imagine?

“I Can Only Imagine” by Mercy Me

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you.”

By the way, friends will take my computer in to the Apple Store in the morning.

Will there be beauty like this peaceful Romanian forest?

Using a new toothbrush to clean the connections made the computer battery charge, but if I put the laptop in my lap…it loses the connection!  We live in an imperfect world, but God will help us find our way.  — Anne

Beautiful Romanian People

They help God's Children serve their people.

July 28, 2011 at 3:10 am Leave a comment

Half of Chemo is Behind Me!

God continues to smile on me.  It’s 8  hours since the third round of chemo was finished.  I’ve had two big meals and Haagen-Dazs Mint ice cream since then.  Nausea can’t find it’s way to my door!   There’s a light covering of hair on my head.  A beige baseball cap with a pink flower on it, and turbans are waiting in the wings.

9:00 a.m. Wednesday will find me in the infusion clinic again, but this time receiving Rutuxin, a healing  medicine that builds new, healthy bone marrow.  The Rutuxin will be followed by a nearly pain free shot of Neulasta – also a “health builder.”   After going through struggles about this latest challenge in my life, God has helped me find peace.  Why has God favored me with such peace and kept me free from harsh side effects?   I’ll believe for the rest of my life that He is doing this in answer to the prayers on my behalf.

A quote by Oswald Chambers came to me from a FaceBook Friend today that encourages me to keep on clinging to God.  I dedicate it to all of you who have had your own struggles, or are in the midst of struggle even as I write. — Anne

Sometimes life feels so dark that it's hard to see the Light.

“Sorrow removes a great deal of a person’s shallowness, but it does not always make that person better. Suffering either gives me to myself or it destroys me. You cannot find or receive yourself through success, because you lose your head over pride. And you cannot receive yourself through the monotony of your daily life, because you give in to complaining. The only way to find yourself is in the fires of sorrow. Why it should be this way is immaterial. The fact is that it is true in the Scriptures and in human experience. You can always recognize who has been through the fires of sorrow and received himself, and you know that you can go to him in your moment of trouble and find that he has plenty of time for you. But if a person has not been through the fires of sorrow, he is apt to be contemptuous, having no respect or time for you, only turning you away. If you will receive yourself in the fires of sorrow, God will make you nourishment for other people.” (Oswald Chambers)

Will you let God help you find and receive yourself through rocky times of sorrow?

June 29, 2011 at 1:34 am Leave a comment

Day by Day Cancer Is Being Defeated!

I have hope to return to Sfantu Gheorghe where I see this ancient church and fortress from my apple green house

Dr. Akbani’s words were music to my ears!  After carefully studying the CT Scan results today, he looked at me with a huge smile on his face as he said, “The swollen lymph nodes are almost gone!  Your spleen is REMARKABLY shrunken in size!”  He went on to say, “I am 100% confident that we will win this battle.”

What competent oncologists know is that the spleen swollen to twice normal size can be a symptom of lymphoma. I did not have spleenitis!  My body was crying out trying to tell us that I have lymphoma.  My lymph nodes were so large as a result of fighting the aggressive lymphoma in my body.

Four more rounds of aggressive chemo will take place before September.   The battle is not over yet.  Please, keep praying that I will be free of extreme fatigue, nausea, sleep well at night, and become all that God wants me to be.  Thank you for your faithfulness in praying for me.  God is honoring the many prayers for my healing.

God has provided me a lovely room with bath at Broadway Plaza near Dr. Sol Akbani’s office at Arlington Cancer Center in Arlington, Texas.   Though the chemo treatment is very aggressive, I have no side effects from the chemo (except for losing my hair).   God is teaching me much about trusting Him, about being patient…waiting on God is a choice.  God is faithful.  We may not like all of His answers to some of our prayers.  But He is God, our Creator and our Good Father.   He will provide what we need and more IF we will step out of the way and let Him be the pilot…not the co-pilot…The Pilot.  Easy to do?  No, but it’s worth it.  — Anne

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

Melissa, Suzanne, & Alva help take care of me now. Last Summer, they brought Let's Start Talking to Sfantu Gheorghe, Romania! God is good!

Beautiful central Romania


June 22, 2011 at 3:05 am Leave a comment

The Children of Transylvania Need Your Help!

Help us fill the rest of these cabins!

God has given us a wonderful opportunity to help send 100 underprivileged children to camp for one week (June 20 – 27) in the beautiful Carpathian Alps!

Good clean fun in the sun!

Many of these children have never seen a forest, or climbed a mountain trail, or had 3 meals a day.  Levy with shining dark eyes told me, “Miss Anne, every day we have meat!”

They learn cooperation while experiencing God's nature.

We already have enough to send 70 children!  We only need $4,420 more to fill the last 30 openings.  For $144, you can provide an experience that may change a child’s life by showing them a better way, by letting them know that God loves them.   If God has blessed you abundantly, maybe you’d like to send 10 or 20 or 30 children!
Experience the joy of  blessing those of whom Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me.  Do not hinder them.  For the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these,”  Matthew 19:14.
Please, send your tax deductible donation to:
God’s Children
c/o 1409 Berne Lane
Lewisville, TX 75067
or donate online at:
Yours in the Master’s service,
Anne Boyd, CEO
God’s Children

June 4, 2011 at 3:10 am Leave a comment

How Dark Before There Is No Light?

Dr. Akbani, my Oncologist/Hematologist/Internist at Arlington Cancer Center stunned me with the news yesterday, “Half of the cancer that was in your body is now gone.” God is answering our prayers!  Yet we are still in the middle of this battle.  In the last few years, darkness has nearly overwhelmed me at times.  In a way, my life has been no different than many others.  We’ve lost loved ones through death or breakup of family. We’ve fought life threatening illnesses.  Everyone has a story.

The question comes again and again…how dark does it have to be before there is no more light?  I’m discovering in my walk with Large Muscle B Non Hodgkins Lymphoma that it is pretty much up to me how much darkness there is.  I’m a Clinical Social Worker.  I’ve helped many people work their way out of the “black dog of depression.”

However, knowing what to do when it is my darkness, has been a challenge.  (It is said that Abraham Lincoln and Winston Churchill spoke of struggling with the “black dog of depression.”)  This is too deep of a subject to be dealt with lightly.  I just want to share with you what is working for me.

God has sent many angels disguised as humans to me because I keep crying out to God.  I learned all over again when the darkness is overwhelming, turn on the light in the room, pray for help to deal with the pain, the fears, and then make myself begin to thank God for any and all blessings in my life.  In a few minutes, the room and my soul are flooded with Light.  It takes practice, but God is always here with us…maybe waiting for you to ask for His help.  He cares, but you have to let Him in. — Anne

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God…” Philippians 4:6  (Did Paul know what he was talking about?)



June 2, 2011 at 1:22 am Leave a comment

Urgent Need!

We gave them warm clothes. Will you help provide them with the most important book they will ever own?

Hungarian Children’s Bibles are ready to print.  I just learned that the printer is waiting to hear just how many we can pay for.  God’s Children needs $10,000, now to contribute towards the cost of printing!  Can you help?  Donate online at, or mail a check now made out to God’s Children.  Send your check to God’s Children, c/o 1409 Berne Lane, Lewisville, TX, 75067.

The Youth Group (fifteen teens) in Pacifica, CA, donated $1,000 tonight!  Will 9 others match their donation?  Can we raise $20,000?  50,000?  One Bible costs $10.  We need 5,000 Bibles this year alone.  Pray for God to rain down showers of blessings and give each Hungarian child in Transylvania their own Bible. — Anne

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them because the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”  Matthew 19:14

His body will be warmer because of the winter clothes we gave. Can you help warm his heart with God's Word?

70% live below the poverty level in Romania. Give them Hope. Give them a Children's Bible in their language for $10!


December 16, 2010 at 8:28 am Leave a comment

Whose Birthday Today?

Can you hear "sleigh bells ring, are you listening!" My rock garden is beautiful covered with snow!

Surprised by snow this morning! (This is the our excellent City Museum.)

Marti, Camelia, and Monica are enjoying the whipped cream and fresh fruit torte Maria uncovered after worship this morning. Seeing the cake, I asked, "WHOSE birthday is it???" (I thought I'd forgotten someone.) Laughing, they shouted, "YOURS! You won't be here on your birthday, so we're celebrating today!" New sheers on the windows made by Camelia and Mimi freshen up the place greatly!

Besides new sheers in this room & kitchen, they bought new colorful covers for the couches! (From left to right - Marioara, Camelia, Maria, Monica, Stefan, Anne and Marti.)

Unsuspecting, I joined Guszti, Aranka and family for lunch...another birthday party for me!

Are you ready for this??? Aranka made this delicious chocolate whipped cream and chopped walnuts cake!

Floating in whipped cream cake, I left the Tofalvi's to go have dinner with Adolf and Reka...oh, I was beginning to wonder...surely not another birthday party? But these people believe birthdays are important! A gourmet dinner followed by my third whipped cream cake was received with thankfulness! (They said they want to be sure I remember to come back!)

I was so absorbed in eating Reka's chicken with apple slices, and "melt in your mouth" homemade mashed potatoes, I forgot to take photos. But these lovely gifts grace my house tonight. How can I say, "Thank you," enough for such an outpouring of love today? God is good...all the time!

One of my favorite places near my home is the ancient 11th century Saas Luthern Church surrounded by a massive fortress that has apartments for all 50 families of the village of Prejmer. When the watchman announced that attackers were on the way, the bells rang out, and the villagers fled inside the well equipped fortress. It's worth a trip to Romania just to see this! Of course, following the tour of the fortress, you'll be invited to Attila and Zsuzsa's for coffee and cake...or maybe a meal! (She's another outstanding cook...and terrific Child Psychologist!)

Just so you remember that it's not always "party time," I'll close with a few photos of the children in Belin who received winter clothing because many of you care about what happens to the flood victims.

70% of the population of Romania lives below the poverty level.  You can see the effects of the strain on the faces of some of these precious children.  Their life is hard!  God bless you for helping them. — Anne

December 6, 2010 at 12:20 am Leave a comment

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