Posts filed under ‘Finding Direction Without Dan’
A Glimpse of My First Week Back in Transylvania Oct., 2011
While I don’t understand the mind of God, or why He makes the choices He does, I do know this — He is God, and I am not. Why did He send His son to die for our sins? He has a plan for our lives. All I have to do is offer my life to Him to be a tool in His hands to glorify Him. To do this, I have to know what He wants from me. The only place to learn about that is in the Bible. That’s why I love the Bible. I have hope of life eternal with God because I am now more than a “fan of Jesus.” I am an Intentional Follower of Jesus. Who will come and go with me? — Anne
Urgent Need!
Hungarian Children’s Bibles are ready to print. I just learned that the printer is waiting to hear just how many we can pay for. God’s Children needs $10,000, now to contribute towards the cost of printing! Can you help? Donate online at http://gods-children.org, or mail a check now made out to God’s Children. Send your check to God’s Children, c/o 1409 Berne Lane, Lewisville, TX, 75067.
The Youth Group (fifteen teens) in Pacifica, CA, donated $1,000 tonight! Will 9 others match their donation? Can we raise $20,000? 50,000? One Bible costs $10. We need 5,000 Bibles this year alone. Pray for God to rain down showers of blessings and give each Hungarian child in Transylvania their own Bible. — Anne
Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them because the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14
Whose Birthday Today?
70% of the population of Romania lives below the poverty level. You can see the effects of the strain on the faces of some of these precious children. Their life is hard! God bless you for helping them. — Anne
Sometimes the Hard Thing Is the Best Thing
Sometimes, we do what we have to…especially when it comes to those we love.
The hardest thing I have ever done was to calmly encourage Dan when we knew he was not long for this earth. In our early marriage days, I cried, refused to talk about life insurance for Dan. In my young mind, if I talked about it, I had to face that one day I might be without him.
When the time came that we knew he was going Home soon, God gave us the strength to calmly say all the things we needed to say. Dan helped me look at, and make plans for my life without him.
Knowing that it is far better to be with the Lord than to stay in this body, I calmly spoke with Dan about the days ahead…for both of us. He now has the Perfect Life, the life he looked forward to most of his days on earth.
And my life? Except for a few things, I live the perfect earthly life. Yes, in Romania…the perfect life. I live on the side of a mountain, in a beautiful apple green house. Good, decent God-loving friends abound. The Lord gives me joyful work to do helping others.
Will I ever stop missing Dan? I don’t know the answer. But God gives me strength for the journey, all that I need each day. So, I say, “Do the hard thing that you fear! On with the Adventure!” — Anne
“God will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus…” Phil. 4:19
A Picture Is Worth a Thousand Words?
It’s 10 p.m., temperature dropping to 34 F, but my house is snug, toasty warm. WHAT is that loud thumping noise in the basement directly under me? Oh, Guszti is tossing birch logs through the basement window into the furnace room! Sitting in my home office, looking at the lights sprinkled on the mountain across from mine, I feel very much at home. Take a look at some of the scenes from my life in Transylvania…
In Belin, this young Gypsy mother and her family are grateful that God’s Children is providing cement and lumber to fill in the holes made by the floods. (Most Gypsy families tell their 14 year old daughters to drop out of school, get married and begin a family.)
Blessings, Anne
Sfantu Gheorghe, Transylvania, Romania
October 2010 Is Almost Over
Dan would have been 77 years old October 18, 2010. Wouldn’t you think that I’d have been content to let him go Home at almost age 76? Some people say, “Why can’t you just think about the happy things?” Well, when you lose your best friend of 58 years, and you put your loss behind you a few weeks after the funeral…and think only of happy things, you answer that question.
Here, in Romania, instead of Halloween, they have the Day of the Dead. They honor their loved ones who have gone on before them. Everyone I know, regardless of religious persuasion, visits the graveside of family members, to lay a lovely floral arrangement on the grave, say a prayer, and light a beautiful candle. As the sun goes down, the cemetery on the mountain side east of my mountain is ablaze with thousands of candles.
You ask, “And, you, Anne? What will you do?” Dan’s ashes lie in his grave in SW Oklahoma near the farm where he was born. While his remains are beside his parents, I have great peace in knowing that his soul is rejoicing in a place more wonderful than we can imagine. He is well, happy, in heaven with God.
Next Monday, friends will come to my apple green house, bring flowers to put next to the candle beside Dan’s photo, and say a prayer thanking God for the time we had with Dan. Maybe, just maybe, God will use that day to bring about deeper healing of our grief. Whatever happens, we accept that God is using our loss to shape us more into who He wants us to be.
October is almost gone. My mood is improving. It’s a long journey, but each day, God’s love and the blessed work He provides for me keeps me going…and growing. “The Lord IS my shepherd…” Psalm 23. — Anne
The Miracle
Dick van Geet, my Dutch neighbor for 5 years in Utrecht, and now good friend for over 50 years, said, “Some people come to Austria and say, ‘You speak of the beauty of the Alps? I don’t see any beauty in them at all.’ ” Dick went on to say, “They may come here 10 times, but they never discover any beauty in these mountains.”
(I can’t imagine how anyone can have scales over their eyes that keep them from seeing the magnificent beauty of mountains. But, then, we are not all the same. It might be a very boring world if we were identical in thoughts and feelings.)
Dick says, “It’s that way with the Word of God. Some people read it and find nothing in it for them.” As we discussed this, we spoke of how others study it, and a miracle happens. The Holy Spirit helps them discover God, grace, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, salvation…and peace. I pray that you may be one of the latter who is now finding peace in your soul because you know…and follow…our Creator and his Son. — Anne
To the intentional followers of Jesus, He makes this promise, “I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20b
And God Multiplied It 10 Times
July 7, 2010, the first donation to help the flood victims here in Covasna County, Transylvania, Romania, was sent to God’s Children by a 12 year old Christian boy who has stepped out in faith to form Mission Ice Cream. Maybe one day I can tell you that story. But the important thing here is that Mission Ice Cream sent God’s Children $354.42, to help the flood victims. (That was the amount his friends and relatives donated instead of spending it on ice cream the previous month.)
I have to admit that when the floods hit, I felt so helpless. All that happened to my house was rain damage that took just 5 days to repair, and then my life was back to “normal.” (Did I hear someone say, “Anne, your life is anything BUT normal for a woman almost 76 years old!”)
Well, anyway…That $354.42, sent by Mission Ice Cream lifted me out of the doldrums inspiring me to let you know about the needs here. God is multiplying that donation almost 10 fold. It has grown to $3,150. A BIG Thank You to those of you who answered the call. Adolf Papp, Pres. of Covasna Red Cross, is working through the Mayor of Belin now to meet specific needs there – food, concrete and lumber to repair houses still standing, etc. But refrigerators are desperately needed to keep food from spoiling in the summer heat. The Red Cross can buy refrigerators for $100 each.
We still need your help! Tax deductible donations can be made online at gods-children.org by clicking on “How You Can Help” in the blue line near the top, or you can mail your check made out to God’s Children to:
God’s Children, c/o Mrs. R.Vali, 1409 Berne Ln., Lewisville, TX 75067
OK, I can’t get the underline to stop. So, I’ll close before this line gets much longer by saying, “It is more blessed to give than receive.” Acts 20:35 Be Blessed! — Anne
Special Times with Special Friends
God continues to provide special opportunities to “be there” for people while receiving a blessing myself. Here are a few photos that explain this.
Blessings, Anne
Shock Waves
Being so high up in the Carpathian Mountains, Sfantu Gheorghe escaped flooding until early this morning. Though my house was not damaged…just a little water in the basement, the little creek down the mountain from me, turned into a wall of water rushing from the Sugash Mountains…flooding 110 homes across the city that were on the banks of the creek, washing two cars clear across town, tearing up streets that cross over the creek, and causing the death a 36 year old man with heart problems – the son of Jutka, one of my co-workers at Pro Nobis Counseling Center. They were trying to rescue their animals when his heart gave out. So sad….
Words fail me…I’m still missing my Dan. I have been told by many that a mother never gets over losing a child. My heart goes out to Jutka, in her great loss. May the God of all comfort be with those who are suffering because of the widespread flooding here in Europe, or because of the loss of loved ones. — Anne